Ego

If you don’t know, I wrote a book. The link is in the bio. One of my chapters in the book is Ego. As I grow older and wiser, I come to better terms with understanding my own process of thinking. I have a long way to go but I know that I’m still and will always be a work in progress. I almost daily learn about myself and how much ego plays a huge part in my thinking. I work at letting ego go by realizing it’s there in the first place and that’s the hardest part I believe.

We go through life especially in our 20’s and 30’s thinking that we are superhuman and nothing will affect us. We are conquerors of everything. We think nothing can touch us. And then you get in your 40’s and 50’s and life starts to be different, mortality comes into play, our physical bodies start to wear out. You look at the world around you just a bit different – hopefully anyways. Otherwise, you will continue on a path of living that you always have and always will – with no true awareness.

Oh, our ego “THINKS” we know, we think we are aware but from what I have seen this is just the human condition of breathing and going through the motions vs actually being aware. I know my body is failing, I know my eyesight, my health, my muscles and bones are not 20 and I am not a conqueror, I am mortal. What a blow to my ego. If I could go back knowing what I know now, life would be so different. But I think that’s even ego right there talking so you see it’s still a daily fight even within myself.

Ego takes on so many different forms……… Be aware……. So, the adventure today is, is to face who, what, where I am today and make wise, educated, sane decisions that serves my soul for today and also the people today that I have contact with. Everything we do has a cause and effect, just like throwing a stone into a lake, the ripples travel on and on even when the “eyes” don’t see. So now it’s off to work a ten-hour shift at a job that I don’t have passion about in order to propel me to a future I do have passion about. My feet will hurt, I work all night, I’m short of money at the moment, but I know who I am and where I’m truly supposed to be. What is your adventure today?