Wisps of Memory

As I’m getting older, I do a lot of pondering. I think often of times of my past and I realize that in the present moment they are all just wisps of my memories. An event, a small moment in time of my many years gone by. Some I recall often; others seem to manifest out of the depths of my mind. Some linger for long periods, and some vanish as quickly as they appeared. What strikes me though is that I understand that there are so many memories and so much time has passed. I know I can create new memories each and every day, but I also feel a sense of loss that many actions in the past have come and gone with only the faint wisps left behind. I want to be more conscious in the moment and allow myself to fully embrace what is happening in the now. Take advantage of the experience and soak all that I can into my soul before it too becomes just another wisp of memory.

I feel that memories are a reminder of life lived and can be obviously good thoughts or unpleasant thoughts. We use these memories to guide us and give us wisdom for our today and our future. But what I also understand is that, sadly all those years are just gone. We can’t replace them; we can’t undo them. We age and we run out of time and ability to make more memories. We start off so carefree and naive to the gravity of living life on the green and blue planet. We just play and exist without the knowing the consequences of what is to come. Then we get a little knowledge and start making choices but most of those choices are based on a young mind jumping into the water too quickly without checking the temperature. Makes for memories but not always the best decision.

Time is a slippery slope. On one hand we think we have an infinite number of years and on the other hand we know as we age just how fast time really goes. I’m at the age now where I’m trying to use the wisps of the past to guide me better in the now and for what is left of the future. Even having this wisdom though, the climb up the mountain is an arduous one. At times it feels too overwhelming and yet having the freedom to know better is what keeps me taking a step up and another step up. And yet I slide back much to my own discomfort and frustration. I haven’t quite figured out yet what the whole purpose of this journey is. But I’ll tell you this; pay attention to the wisps that manifest in the universe of your mind for they are trying to reveal an understanding that is deeper than any ocean. Hold fast in the moment of living the journey and relish in that very moment as long as you can because it too shall become just a wisp of memory.