It’s Just Me

This is my 100th blog, well sort of. I’ve done many more previously but deleted them due to the current content taking a different direction. If you all have been with me since the beginning, you may recall that I was going to travel in my van across country and live the journey. I was in the process of getting the van ready, finding a trailer for my motorcycle and being all giddy about the process. But giddiness turned to reality. Reality is traveling across the country with no money and no real skills was a fantasy idea and not attainable. So, I sold everything instead and tried to move to Hawaii. I had a job, I had what I thought was a place to rent but again when I got there and reality hit, it was a different story. Isn’t that what life is, a chapter after chapter of your life’s story. Well for the last 99 blogs I feel I have been writing an awaking story for us all. That life can go this way and that way or doesn’t have to go any way at all. That life is a choice. But in order to make that choice, one must be aware that there is a choice to begin with. So, what I have shared with you in my words is all just a reflection of what I’m breathing, aging, dying and living right alongside you. It’s just me trying to find me and sharing that journey so that it might inspire you to find you.

There are many versions of ourselves that live out our lives on this journey. We change, we adapt, we grow. Some for the better, some for the worse. I keep trying to have hope for the human condition. I keep trying to have hope for the intellect of our species. I see much to be desired and much to be at peace with. One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is that I am me and you are you. We can’t change each other, we can only give words of insight, of wisdom, of love, hope, encouragement. But we can also give words of harm, discouragement, bias, judgement. Both can help in a person’s journey, and both can limit a person’s journey, truly. This thing called life is a mesmerizing quantum of ideas and understanding. There are rabbit trails and dark caverns, there are mountain tops and ocean sunsets. There is a plethora of possibility and yet there is only one life to live. I hope I have been able to share of myself in order that your path may have been enlightened. A path you were created to make, not the path we settle for because the journey is too arduous.

I don’t have much figured out about this thing called life. I’m a real dummy much of the time. But my spirit yearns to know, to do better. My spirit screams that there is more to this world than a rat running on the wheel. There has to be a reason for our creating, a reason for ourselves to exist. There has to be more than just living and dying and going through the motions, wherever we are, like a walking dead. There just has to be. Or what else would be the point? Think about that. Why are you here, what is your purpose? Trust me, I’ve come to understand it’s way more involved than what your simple mind thinks and yet it’s actually still quite simple. I believe we choose to come to this planet. Our life force commits to a life of gravity, oxygen and skin. I believe we know this as children but are soon “trained” out of it by the life around us. We forget where we came from, the stars, and we become rooted in whatever we are brought up in. We more often than not lose ourselves in becoming a human being and just stop; being. The journey is really about self-discovery and to understand, to know that you are more than just the body you are breathing in. More than a job, more than where you live, more than a marriage, more than even your kids. You are perfect in every single way and none of those outside things change that. Only you and I in ourselves change that. That is your choice, that is my choice. You are you and I am me. I’ve just been sharing on this adventure that there’s a whole different understanding out there on the journey. But I thank you for taking a few steps with me. One step at a time, I’ll see ya out there.